The unlikely candidate.

So here i am holding out for doug, he talks to me like shit, he never says how he feels, i dont know where its going, i want to beleive that this will one day be everything ive ever been searching for when the truth is i probably know it wont be but im still here holding on, allowing thr ridiculous behaviour to continue- its like a playground romance...really its that silly.

Then theres someone else who gives you that desired attention.., at first i felt guilty because its almost like i was pretending that the affection was coming from doug, using this person as a substitute when doug angered me. But somethings changed...

I dont know to what extent yet, and i dont know if i believe myself yet but something has definatley changed.